Hey pops! I just wanted to say G’bye. I still Love you and haven't forgotten you, but I have to move on from this point. Cause at this point I don’t have anything left. At this point I feel so drained and still feel as if I'm by myself. Even when I'm with someone else. My feeling are still hidden and a lot of times I rather be alone. I guess without you and Chris in this life, I can't seem to find an emotional home.
Tonight will be the first night I’m going to look up in the Sky. Tonight will be the first night to think of you and my brother and not ask God the question of why.

I know you have questions and No I’m still not married. And No, I still don’t have a child. And that girl I use to date, well she’s been gone for a while. I’m glad God doesn’t allow you to see me this way and he doesn’t let you see mama’s pain. I try to comfort her whenever I’m home, but to know that she cries whenever I leave, still drives me completely insane. Yes, I know time has to take its toll and there's nothing that I can do, but if I can just be honest? Honestly, sometimes I wished I was gone too.

I guess I been mad at Chris, I guess I been upset with you. I felt you left me by myself and I felt my life was physically and emotionally through. It hurts daddy. But I guess I held this far to long. And although I haven't really shown my emotions these passing years. My life has been nothing but sad songs. Especially all the years since you've been gone. But I'll be okay, I’m still holding on. I finally have new strength in my life. It's now or never, right? Right daddy? I wish you can hear me. I wish I can hear you say G'bye.

I'll miss you daddy. I miss you Chris. And I still believe this isn't fare. But I guess as long as God cares, then I’ll be ok. So for the last time, and until we meet again, Farewell...