I hate that my heart yearns for you. I hate... I hate and I can’t stand the way you make me feel the way I do; the way I feel about you.
I hate. I hate you’re the one I need. I hate that you’re the one my soul cries out to. I hate the way I feel my heart bleeds without you. And I hate I'm not sure what my heart is trying to tell me to do?
These emotions are killing me, so I close my eyes thinking you'll disappear, but in my mind I still can see you. I guess my heart memorized a picture and sound of you. I guess for the time being my imagination is not done with you.
I’m suppose to be stronger then this. So I tell myself, I'm not the only one that's fueled with hate. I know I did and said some things to you that were wrong, so on this we don't need to debate. But I don’t need someone that just wants to pay me back, with vindictive traits on past mistakes. Honestly, I just wanted you to protect me in my time of need. You know what I need. And Understand that I make mistakes. I can’t Always be as strong as everyone Always expected of me. I want Serenity. But I feel I can’t have it unless you’re standing next to me.
THAT'S WHAT I HATE. Do I belong to you? You know I don't really believe in that type of Fate. No matter what I did or what you did or what we do? I hate that I have this cane, this crutch, this yerning to be with you. This in-love with you is driving me insane. To much blame, to much pain. And "If you’re not the one”, then will these feelings for you ever change or will it Always be the same? I Hate how much in-love remains. What I hate is not you, but this whole situation of being jaded with just my thoughts you.
